SELLING OUT? PART ONE.
I really haven’t been very good at this blogging thing lately. I did have a nice long entry last week. Don’t ask me where it went, I have no idea. Someplace in lost blog entry land I guess. It was about Halloween and what a great time we had on Beggars night in Maine with my brother and SIL and all the kids. Oh and the job, I didn’t get it. After a month of waiting to hear on it they finally tell me that two people decided to switch hours so the job isn’t available now. Nice of them to take so long to let me know.
So now that leaves me to my word to Angus. That if this last try at the school doesn’t work out that I will look elsewhere. So I have and, I feel like I am selling out on my kids. Well, mostly to Zoe and Aidan. Most of the jobs I have had over the years I have been very fortunate to be able to be home with my children when they have vacations or days off. And home when they get home from school to help with homework and the like. The only two jobs I have had that I have not been able to do this was when I worked at a hair salon. I had Sunday and Monday off, and Tuesday thru Friday I got out at 5 PM. Aidan and Zoe stayed at a after school program from 3:30 PM to 5:15. It was a fun program and they enjoyed it. It cost a bit but was well worth it. They really didn’t see it as daycare, more like playtime after school with their classmates before coming home. I left that job about a year after I left the EX. I love that job and hated having to leave it. I needed more money, my boss needed to cut back expenses. So off I went to a major company to make lots of money. With lots of hours. Lots of overtime hours. The money was decent, the hours were not. I was lucky that when I had to go in hours earlier than I was suppose to that a neighbor and friend was able to get the Zoe and Aidan off to school for me. The other end was a nightmare and left me stressed out at least three out of five working days. After school care ended at 6 PM, I had to work until 7 PM a lot. Ya know to finish up “Team Quota’s” and make “The Team” look good. Somehow I was able to have friends pick them up and bring them home when needed. There were a lot of times I had to put my foot down and tell my boss that I had to be out and pick up the kids by 6 PM. All the work I did after 5 PM was not work that was mine. It was other people work that didn’t get done and needed to be done so that the next day could start out smooth, and so that we would hit the “Team” work quota for the end of the week.
I was with Angus by this time in my life. He traveled and was gone Monday thru Friday most weeks but, he was a big help once the kids had to switch schools the following year and there was no more after school care. Sophia was old enough to watch Zoe and Aidan after school. So that was that. And it sucked. For her, for me, and for Zoe and Aidan. I was a complete stressed out mess most of the time. It was a happy, happy moment when that company went through cut backs and I was one of them in the second round let me tell you! Of course it brought on all kinds of other stress. I needed to make money. Thankfully a close friends ex husband needed a display designer and was very flexible with the hours. Unfortunately it was only seasonal, about 2-3 months tops twice a year. So we cleaned houses in between. It actually worked out well for for the time. And then working for Angus and his company when he had it I was able to work at home for the most half, until the heart attach that is. And well we know it has been down hill from there. This is going to have to be a two parted. Time to go sell out.
TTFN
Posted on 11/07/05 at 11:34 AM