ONE OF US IS GOING TO END UP DEAD PART 2
Well, I never did end up blogging the rest yesterday. Angus is doing very well considering. He hasn’t had a cigarette in 48 hours. Which is 24 hours longer than the last time he tried to quit. I spoke to him at work and he hasn’t caved yet.
He really only wigged out twice so far. Once when I was secretly trying to blog and have a butt, and then while I was soaking in a nice bubble bath (for the first time in 4 years. Not cause I am gross, just cause I HAVEN’T HAD A TUB for that long. Just a shower stall). He totally jonesed on me. I didn’t cave and give him one. I was very firm, but nice, and kicked his ass out of the bathroom. It was however, suppose to be my birthday gift. An unlimited bubble bath free of whinny children and interruption listening to Sade gift. And he was the only one to bug me! But he has been doing great since then.
I however, am on pins and needles. I have four cigarettes left in my pack. I am in my pj’s and it is way too cold to go out for a pack. So I guess I bite the big one tonight. I had originally planned on waiting until the end of the week. Ya know, to make sure if he joneses on me again that we won’t convince each other that it’s ok and we can always quit next week. Plus, I am really not sure I want or am ready! I think mostly the latter of the two.
So I say nothing to anyone in this house and see how it goes. I guess I could put it to myself in a positive note. I will be healthier when I turn 40 . Ok, well that didn’t work. That just reminded me I am going to be freaking FORTY in one year! I thought I just turned 30 a couple of years ago, didn’t I?
Well keep fingers crossed and wish me luck, cause I am going to need it.
TTFN
Posted on 11/29/04 at 10:52 PM