NO WIGGIES YET
Ok, so far so good. I put a patch on about a half hour before I had my last cigarette last night, at 10:17 PM. Wow, they are not kidding when they say you have vivid dreams. I am exhausted! So far I don’t feel the need for a ciggie. But I have also only been up for about fifteen minutes lol.
It’s going to be a pretty busy day, so that is good. Angus has an appointment at 11 AM. So I have to get kiddo’s off to school, jump in the shower and pick him up to go. But I am afraid of the hour car drive there. That will be trying. We should get back just in time for me to get ready for a job interview I have at 3:30. Lets just hope I am not all agitated by then. If I can get past the hour or so before the interview with out convincing myself I will do better through it if I have a cigarette just before, all will be good. Keeping fingers crossed that I can.
Angus did very well last night. He said he had a few rough moments, but he was busy so it helped. Yesterday was his first time at work since he quit. They all smoke. Like fiends. (hey so far a whole cup and no urge, time to get another).
Well, said kiddo’s fed, lunch packed, and out the door. And I would like a butt thankyouverymuch. Not wigging yet, but if I had one in the house it would be very tempting. As I typed that I was running in my head were there might one. In the car? Did I leave any in there? No, get over it. You don’t have any!
I think I am going to have a very clean and tidy house for the next couple of weeks. I have already cleaned most of the kitchen while I was getting breakfast and lunches, and started laundry. I stopped myself with the thought that if I keep going, I am going to be late picking E up, and I won’t have anything to do between 4:30 and bedtime. I can do this! I can do this and not kill anyone. I can do this and not be committed to an insane asylum?
TTFN
Posted on 11/30/04 at 11:11 AM