Dinner Date
Angus and I went out on a Date Saturday night. First time in a very long time. It was great.
We talked a bit on Friday evening, didn’t think to much of it. It was mostly everything I have been repeating over and over again without any headway. He went over to help the neighbors on their house in the morning and I searched for houses. I found a really nice new townhouse that seemed perfect. Great schools for all the kids, and its only about 10 minutes if that to Angus’s job.
So I decided to go and check it out, and he wanted to go too. So we went, and it is great. We are going to try and get in one. So on the way home I mentioned maybe going out to dinner. Somewhere cheap, just out of the hot kitchen for one night. No dice, he wasn’t buying. We stopped at the store to pick something up that could be cooked outside. Nothing appealed to him so I grabbed ground beef and hamburgers were on the menu.
As we are putting away the groceries, Angus says, “I could be persuaded”. So I jumped lol. Fixed my makeup and asked Sofia if she would baby-sit, and off we went. Decided Outback sounded good. Not. It was so packed we would have waited two hours, I kid you not. So I suggest On the Border or Macaroni Grill. Naw, he doesn’t feel like it and pulls in to my most favorite place, Anthony’s. The food is wonderful and the atmosphere is just soothing. And they had the best singer that night. He played all the great soft music of the 60’s and 70’s.
Anyway, as we were eating our salad and enjoying a very nice bottle of wine from Napa Valley, Angus blurts out, “What you said last night was 100% correct” I have no clue as to what he was talking about lol. So I inquire about this profane thing that I had said, and ya know what, he repeated it word for word! I just about dropped my glass of wine. He actually listened and heard what I was saying! And agreed with me.
We talked about a lot and had a very nice evening. Things have been a lot lighter in this house for the past couple of days, and it feels great! I just hope my bubble doesn’t burst too soon, or at all. I hope that this is the beginning to getting back to “US”.
TTFN
Posted on 08/09/04 at 11:25 PM
Boredom
And that’s it pretty much. Just freaking bored today. My house is clean, and laundry is caught up. I have read all the blogs I read everyday, even wondered around a couple of new ones.
I am starting to wonder if that is part of the reason I seem to be in this funk lately. Everything is so damn routine. We never do any of the things we use to. I know money has a lot to do with it. But a lot has changed, and its mostly my fault. I am also not ready to write about it either. “Then It Would Be Real” and Angus wants to just forget about it. And it did happen some time ago, but it’s still there hanging in one of the corners of my mind. It took some time, but it changed our life so much.
TTFN
Wanted: Lost Man
He’s 6’8”, bright blue eyes, 165-170Ibs. Nice dresser, smooth talker. Great listener. Great sharer. Intelligent, funny guy. Loves snuggling in bed in the morning, bringing me coffee and watching the morning news. Likes to drink wine on the patio on warm moonlit summer nights. Please if you have seen him, or anyone that fits the description, let me know!
I miss my best friend, and I want him back! I am sure he misses his too. I have not been the same person lately myself. But I just miss “US” so much. The old us, the way we used to be together. I don’t think a day has gone by for weeks now without some kind of disagreement, some small and silly, and some humdingers for sure. I know a lot of it has to do with our financial situation, he doesn’t do poor very well. I’ve been there, got threw it and moved on. I don’t like being back there. I don’t know how I am actually handling it, I feel numb most of the time. Ya know like, this isn’t all really happening to me numb.
I miss being able to talk to him. I use to be able to talk to him about things that were very, very hard for me to talk about, if ever, with anyone. Things that I never talked about with my ex husband. So now I find myself shutting him out the past couple of days. Pretending there is nothing bothering me, but not speaking unless spoken to. I don’t want to go back there again. I have tried and tried talking with him, but he doesn’t hear me.
I am scared that things might not work out with us, very, very scared. I keep telling myself that its the stress of his heart attach 6 months ago, our financial situation because of it. But is it? Is there a way back even if it is? This is what I fall asleep thinking, while watching him sleep. And what I wake up to staring at the empty spot beside me every morning.
TTFN
I Hate My Back!
I am really getting tired of my back hurting all the time. It has been hurting me all week, again. Today has been a good day, so what do I do? Marathon cleaning. Ya, that ought to send me right back to bed tomorrow! I still can’t sit here long enough to write much. By the time I get email and read a blog or two my back is telling me enough.
I have had a lot I wanted to blog about this week. I am sure I will forget by the time I can sit here long enough. Well, waiting for Sally to get here to cut our hair tonight. Mine is way past do.
TTFN
Toys
I just love new toys for the computer. Thanks Kate for turning me on to Firefox! I have been playing with it for hours now. I downloaded the Noia lite theme. Its soooo cute! I am sure I will download more. Angus will never know they are there. And I can mess with him by changing them every now and again. No wonder I have a reputation for being a pain in the ass!!
TTFN
My Aching Back
The pool is up, back ache and many sore muscles later. I have an icepack on my back right now so I can sit here. It took us the rest of the day to get it up. It’s filled with water and the kids are splashing away as I type (I can see them from here).
Angus actually took pity on me when he got home from his meeting and went to the store to get a few things for dinner. Of course it helped that I was ironing a shirt for him when he walked in. Damn, I know how to manipulate when I want too! Hey, whatever works. I wonder, if I have a whole basket full of ironing in front of me when he walks in today if I could get him to do the weeks worth of shopping? Ya, right! Guess I have that to look forward to doing tonight.
TTFN
Dang Pool!
Ugh, I really don’t want to put up a pool. Again. For the second time this week. But I have to. My back hurts from attempt #1, and from taking it down and trying to level the dang ground yesterday. Angus got it in his head on Tuesday (his only day off) to finally put up the kids pool. They have been bugging him for a month now, so he caved and we did it. He just decided that the ground didn’t look that unlevel, maybe just an inch or two he said. Ya right, try a foot or two! The dang thing started to tip over! So down it came. He doesn’t want anything to do with putting it back up again. So that leaves me and Sophia, and a little help from Zoe and Aidan. The shade is in just the right spot to go attempt it right now. So why am I sitting here blogging? Cause I REALLY do not want to do this again. Guess I should, try anyway.
TTFN