Missing Family
I am really starting to miss some of my family again. I think it has been two years since I was back there. My cousin called me late last night and we talked for a while. I didn’t get to see her when I was back the last time, so it has been over five years since I have seen her. We talked a lot about the past and our very loved and missed relatives that have died and how it has changed and shaped our lives. I myself Know that if my Nana and Aunt were still alive I would not be living 3000 miles from them.
We cried a little and laughed a lot. I miss her terribly. And I think she needs me right now. She has a very hard time in the winter months, and they are fast approaching. We also talked about the responsibility that the family laid on me to keep them all together and close. And I told her a secret. I told her that was one of the main reasons I left home. And she cried floods of tears, and so did I.
I am thinking that a visit is in my near future. But probably not until after all the holidays. I have another secret and it bothers me. I don’t miss my Mother, or even my siblings. I miss my cousin, my nieces and nephews and one friend. And it make me feel guilty.
TTFN
Posted on 10/02/04 at 01:35 PM