I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN BETTER
I woke up yesterday feeling pretty good for the first time in a long time. It was going to be sunny and fairly warm. If one can call 50 degrees warm that is. I can’t. I thought maybe I would try though. So I decided early in the morning I was going to go out and enjoy the day. Get some Easter Baskets and maybe a little candy for the kids.
So I, in my usual routine since the move, dropped the aidan off at school came home had a cup of coffee while getting my email. My older sister is online and IM’s me, “What are you up to etc..... So do you want to go together, I have to do the same stuff?” I figure what the heck, I haven’t seen her really for weeks now. I let her know I have to stop by Angus’s place of employment and the bank before I go off to play. This is great, as she needs to take a shower still. She will be over in an hour. Tick,tick,tick, goes the clock. She is an hour and fifteen minutes later than she told me she would be. It is now almost noon time. I have to pick up Aidan at 2:30. But this is ok we still have plenty of time to do what needs to be done, and I really didn’t expect her to be here on time.
So off we go to one of the Christmas Tree Shops to see what we can find. I found some very cute baskets for the kids for only $3.99, and grass for something like 2 for a dollar. Place mats that my Mother and I have been hunting for, (so the kids do not destroy my Nana’s table) though they are not the rubber ones we originally wanted, they will do. And at $2.99 for a four place setting I got two sets. Some chocolate bunnies,$1 a piece, a pair of gloves for all three kids, for 50% off, (do you know how hard it is in March to find hat and mittens for your kids?) and a apple/veggie corers for $1.99,and egg coloring kits for a buck a piece also. The total for everything I got was $45.00. Not a bad deal in my book!
But let us back up a bit, to one isle over from the hat and mitten section. My last purchases. I spot way up high, a pasta and balsamic vinegar and oil set for $8.99.( I have seen similar for around $50) And I say to the sister, “Wow, thats a deal, wonder how I could justify getting that, Hum, wonder if that would be a good Mo.....(cut off in mid sentence) “Well, you have gotten more than I would if I was in your position” My jaw just about hit the floor. She was in front of me so she could not see my shock, and hurt. And went on to say to me “ Well that is a good deal and I really like it too, but I won’t make you feel bad and get it, today anyway”. I shit you not. I was floored. I started to tell her that regardless of “my position” my children still should have easter baskets. But I got as far as regardless. I could tell if I went on I would end up in tears. I was not going to give her the satisfaction. I pretended I spotted something else and forgot what I was going to say.
I fought tears the whole time we were waiting in line. I just couldn’t believe what she had said, with no thought. Whatafuckingbitch. And I still had the supermarket and ride home to endure. Then she wants to come in to eat her lunch she bought when we get to my Mothers! Thank gawd Sophia came home from school a few minutes later, and I had to get the Aidan.
Earlier in the morning when we were chatting online, Easter came up. And stupid me asked if she was still doing the easter egg hunt/brunch deal she always did. She has an invite to a neighbors for brunch and was planning a early dinner. But will check and see if the invite is still on. If it’s not then maybe we can all get together. She hasn’t done the “big deal” (the only thing she ever hosted as far as family holiday get togethers) in a few years because my Brother and SIL haven’t gone. Just shit, me and my big mouth! The only reason I asked is because this use to be a big deal to her years ago. I didn’t want to make plans just in case she was planning on it. I didn’t want to decline after missing my nephews birthday. Why didn’t someone tell me that she hasn’t done this for a few years? I would have been home free.
I think I am safe though. On our way out the door she asked Sophia if she wanted to do the egg hunt thing at her house. I cut her off and told her that I needed to check with Angus before we really commit to anything, as it is his only day off. And she went on to say that she doesn’t care what Angus wants, she wants to know what Sophia wants. Sophia is a smart girl, and said that she is a little to big for an egg hunt to be decided around her. Good girl, my girl! And that is were it was left.
I was just dumbfounded for the rest of the day and night. And I think that she called my Mother at work and probably gave her an ear full of her bullshit. For one, my mother never asked how the shopping went and wasn’t shocked when I showed her the place mats. What she said was, “Oh, they are nice”. Like one had been told about them already. Hum. I don’t know were my sister gets off sometimes, I really don’t. I could see if I was out buying up a storm for things for myself, but I got Easter stuff for the kids, place mats for my mother, and a $1.99 gagit for the kids to cut apples with.
I think next time I try and pull myself out of this funk I am in, I will just go back to bed.
TTFN
Posted on 03/23/05 at 04:48 PM