5 AM VS 6:30 AM

Sep 27

Dear Gawd, it’s 8 O’clock in the morning and I am blogging. I have feed children, made lunches, shooed them all of to work/school, started laundry, and started a marinate for dinner tonight. Did I mention it is only 8 AM? If you know me well, you know I am NOT a morning person. I need to lounge in bed with my coffee for about a hour before I like to get up and meet the world. I am seriously weighing if being able to sleep in until 6:30-7 AM is worth staying home. Right now having to get up at 5 AM to have my coffee time to be out the door at 6:50 is not sounding bad lol. The only thing I had to do when I was working was make sure the kids were up and Aidan had a lunch. Angus made his own and made sure they had something to eat before they left for the day. He also drove Aidan to school on his way to work.

It always amazes me when I am not working, how the heck I ever got everything done that needs to be done during the week while working a full time job. The only thing angus really helped me with was the laundry, and he picked up his dry cleaning. And that wasn’t every week either. He is all for me working. He just doesn’t like it when it’s full time and he asks (delegates) me to do something and he gets “The Look”. As in, honey do it yourself, cause I have two jobs and you have one. The kids have been back at school for almost a month now, and I have officially been out of work for that amount of time. Angus has, not once, mentioned anything about me going back to work. That scares me. Not even on a week that he has not made a big commission. That scares me. He even made a comment on the lines of me not going back to work a few weeks ago when he went in for the interview. That scares me.

I think I seriously need to start looking lol. I have been just flip flopping the idea of what kind of job to look for. I don’t want to get into anything that I would feel bad about leaving on a short notice. I also don’t want to work at a place (you know a convenience store or Market) just to say, hey I have a job, but it cost most of my paycheck in gas money to get there! But I am contributing money to the household! I don’t feel a strong enough pull to be out in the “Real World” for that yet lol.

We have been looking at houses out of state. No matter what kind of job I get, I would not make enough for a commute to be worth it. We haven’t gotten to the serious part of looking. At this point I don’t think it will happen before X-Mas, like I was hoping for. We have come to the conclusion that this is not going to be easy for us to agree on either. He wants one of any three states, I want only one (well two, but CA is not a option at the moment) of the three states. The kind of house (as long as it’s not some double wide thing lol) is not really the problem though. Just the location. I am not even remotely interested in looking for any kind of “Dream Home”, even if we could afford it. I am looking at this being a stepping stone house. One that we can make a good profit on in a year or two to get us back to the west coast. Thats why location is a big issue for me. I know this area, I grew up here, and Angus is new to it. I think I have the advantage of knowing what areas would be better to make such a deal. I know what areas have boomed so to speak, and what areas have the potential to, better than he does. My only saving grace here is my brothers influence. Angus respects his opinion, thank gawd!

Well time to get some sheot done around here. I am, yet again, stuck because Angus took my car to work today. See I don’t have to pick up his dry cleaning or go to the store for anything, so I don’t “Need” my car. Um ya, I need to get a job.


bumblebee  Posted on 09/27/06 at 07:10 AM